Graduate Material

There has been a lot that has happened which has prevented me from posting. Some I wish to speak about, and others I wish to forget. One of them, however is my physical leap from College. Yes I have graduated. And I although I haven’t exactly fallen into the "real world" I would like to say I am floating somewhere in the "abyss" btw college and the real world. Since I’ve been home, I haven’t found a job, and have been desperately trying to find a job. So far, no such luck. To make things even the more complicated, I love finding out that if I would have done certain things differently in the past, it could have put me in a better situation presently to find a job. But can we look back? Although my mind can’t stop doing so… I have to force it on the present.

So, presently… I am at home, and trying very hard to be patient. Patient being away from the boyfriend and fighting every incling to drive down to see him at any opportunity. But most of all patient with my family. I know that probably sounds really bad. But being away from them for so long, I needed to ease into being around them so much… But no, I get the full fledged sarcasm, fighting, running around thrown at me. Its hard to handle, but you gotta love’em

Was across the river, soo mich. to do some shopping.. although I ended up only getting some hair elastics which is weird. guess I just wasn’t in the shopping mood. We got pulled over at customs thought, I guess having over $300 worth of merchandise constitutes as having to pay taxes. I mean when someone asks how much money you have and you reply we each have $85, that does mean $85 times the three people in the car…. Good thing I didn’t claim the 35 mm pistols next to the pound of cocaine in the back seat… mannn. I feel like sometimes I try too hard to make things simpler when I talk and obviously sometimes simple is too complicated. I think for the next little while I won’t try and just say what comes out… and if I still get confused looks, I won’t know what to do anymore…

 Well this post definately lacked depth… I am sort of out of it today…I have an early morning beginning with the gym, then doing some more running around. So I better get some shut-eye.